eternal youth.

do i need to say this? that last entry does sound really pompous to me, rereading it this morning. my point (hopefully) was less about setting up a me=complex, they=simplistic dichotomy, and more about trying to figure out exactly how much overlap in ideology (political & otherwise) i really want from the people i work with, & how much i can realistically expect. and obviously i value their work & experience, else i wouldn't be applying to their programs, eh?

i think yesterday i just kept envisioning how strange it will be to move away (not entirely, but in part) from the bubble of my current circle, where everyone is using similar language & keeping up with similar issues/happenings. but really, given all my talk about how (formal) education needs to be reciprocal & go both ways, i should really be paying attention to how much productive conversation i think we can have, rather than necessarily the particulars of their political views.

um, last night yumi & i stood out in the fucking freezing weather for at least half an hour before we were let in (half an hour late) to see the future bible heroes. magnetic fields has better songs but fbh has truly hilarious lyrics. before the show we had tea & i realized that i really am consumed by thoughts of grad school. maybe it's just the intensity of putting applications together. i need to find other things to talk about.

i was having a really sad dream this morning when my alarm went off.