my wagner in dungarees.

[subjective]

i am so excited about grad school & having the time/resources/guidance to work on this research. for reals, i think about it & i get all squirmy.

two programs are super exciting & promising.
two are less so.
one remains a wildcard, to be better determined after a few meetings in a week & a half.

at the risk of sounding pompous: i'm a little worried about getting to school & discovering that my ideals/politics (or at least the politics i strive for) are more radical/complicated than those of the people mentoring me. and after a phone conversation with a prof yesterday, i'm more than little worried about having to educate on trans politics, like all the time in whatever program i'm in. and like, starting at the very beginning. like, with what basic language to use. i need to resign myself to this immediately, huh.

i live in a bubble right now. my friends rock so hard. i love you.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Yes. Resign yourself immediately. Your politics are going to be more radical and complicated than those of 95% of the people you come across outside of your current community. That doesn't make us non-radical, noncomplicated folks bad or stupid people...and not everyone's going to take well to being educated by you, or particularly feel that they NEED to be. But, as you know, historically my attitude to people like that is, so what, screw 'em, let me get on with what I was doing.
It makes me happy to read about your enthusiasm for this. And I'm very much looking forward to seeing you in a couple of weeks.
Love, jeannette