my wagner in dungarees.

[subjective]

i am so excited about grad school & having the time/resources/guidance to work on this research. for reals, i think about it & i get all squirmy.

two programs are super exciting & promising.
two are less so.
one remains a wildcard, to be better determined after a few meetings in a week & a half.

at the risk of sounding pompous: i'm a little worried about getting to school & discovering that my ideals/politics (or at least the politics i strive for) are more radical/complicated than those of the people mentoring me. and after a phone conversation with a prof yesterday, i'm more than little worried about having to educate on trans politics, like all the time in whatever program i'm in. and like, starting at the very beginning. like, with what basic language to use. i need to resign myself to this immediately, huh.

i live in a bubble right now. my friends rock so hard. i love you.

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[oblivionjen.livejournal.com]

this comment will not include constructive or reflective thoughts as i am currently frying my brain over this stupid cixous / mulvey paper. i just wanted to say that your enthusiasm is amazing and a bit contagious and that you never cease to amaze me with the way you tackle this stuff. i think that you're wise to fear that there will be lots of educating to do and politics to radicalize, but i also think that you will find space and people who will make that an easy and maybe even exciting process. you radiate positive energy and the kind of people who will be attracted by that are not the people who will be fucked up on trans stuff. perhaps i am being overly idealistic and naive, but i think that it will be okay. and that the space you are in will include people who, if they know nothing, will be open to the project of learning. and who, if you care enough to teach them, will probably do much of the work themselves.

and plus i love you tons. :**