my wagner in dungarees.

[subjective]

i am so excited about grad school & having the time/resources/guidance to work on this research. for reals, i think about it & i get all squirmy.

two programs are super exciting & promising.
two are less so.
one remains a wildcard, to be better determined after a few meetings in a week & a half.

at the risk of sounding pompous: i'm a little worried about getting to school & discovering that my ideals/politics (or at least the politics i strive for) are more radical/complicated than those of the people mentoring me. and after a phone conversation with a prof yesterday, i'm more than little worried about having to educate on trans politics, like all the time in whatever program i'm in. and like, starting at the very beginning. like, with what basic language to use. i need to resign myself to this immediately, huh.

i live in a bubble right now. my friends rock so hard. i love you.

Comments

[adrienmundi]

While your perspective may be less well understood by those in your academic circles, that's not the whole of your life. While it'd be amazingly great if your "peers" shared your interests and how they applied to the collective field of study, I'm not sure I'd expect it. That doesn't mean it's incumbent on you to educate them; I still think that's a choice (one I'm often less than enthusiatic about facing myself).

However, if you do find open minded, radical peerage, I will be incredibly, visibly green with envy. Good luck!