let's do all those things you said.

[subjective]

just got home from the mirah show in yumi's basement. very sweet. i could've told her what the murphy bed song makes me think of but it might have made everyone blush.

i've been thinking about my proposed grad school project & getting so excited about it. a few days ago i wrote a sort of outline & when i reread it, i realized that even if i don't get accepted to any of the programs, i still want to do this research because i think it's important & i'm really enthusiastic about it. like when i read my outline i feel like i just want to drop everything & start working on the project. yeah.

also i was reading an article a few days ago by someone who is my current secret brain-crush, about trans bodies & self-determination & medicine, & i realized how, um, unsettling it is to go to a therapist for transition purposes (medical or not), basically in hopes (?) that you will be diagnosed with a mental disorder, so you can have the go-ahead to get on with your life & do certain things. or maybe that's just how i feel. i wonder if subconsciously this is part of what is holding me back from making a therapy appointment.

i've been really into looking at amazon wishlists lately, even though i hate amazon. also i like the gilmore girls, there i said it. the spinanes are totally my favorite band of this year. if you'd been at the mirah show tonight you would know that it is possible to update someone on your life by talking only about ice cream flavors.

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[subjective.livejournal.com]

you've been skimming my lj entries!! ;) i wrote my current list of programs last week sometime, i think. starting close to home & moving out, they are:
harvard, hist of sci
nyu, american studies
rutgers, history (with an eye to the gender & hist of sci concentrations)
univ michigan at ann arbor, history/women's studies (joint program)
uc davis, cultural studies

if you know anything about gender studies programs, and/or profs working specifically with trans issues/history, drop me an email so i can pick your brain! ;)

[redrider.livejournal.com]

mmmmm. history of science!

apologies for skimming. i've been away so much, and have been bad about keeping up with everyone's goings-on!

i don't know anyone working with trans history especially, but my all-time favorite prof, jenny terry, is starting at wmn's studies at uc irvine next year, i think (she's at berkeley right now). it's too bad none of your schools-of-interest intersect with the monkey's; it would be lovely to live in the same town/city as you!

xo a.

[subjective.livejournal.com]

yes, i've heard great things about jenny terry. but irvine. i dunno if i could live there 6+ years. where's the monkey applying & what sort of program/project is he looking at? just teasin' about the skimming.

[redrider.livejournal.com]

well...

the monkey's applying to Rhetoric at Berkeley, the discourse program at Minnesota, Visual Studies at UC Irvine, and HisCon at Santa Cruz. He's thinking about looking at advertising and interpellation, and i'm pretty sure he'd be happy to tell you more if you asked (he's lj user ghostmonkey). i'm going to try and not mangle his theoretical project, because it involves Lacan and Zizek, and both of them are out of my range.

all places that seem good for living, to me. i don't know anything about irvine, tho. it's very strange being partnered and having this feeling that this time next year, i'll be somewhere different, doing something different -- and i have no idea where i'll be and what i'll be doing. but as long as the monkey gets health insurance i can sign on for, i should be okay with finding some sort of work.

i am understanding more & more, with each week, why it is that people quit library school. i've had dreams of library-studies-related (& other intellectual) projects i'd like to do, but they all seem so far away from what goes on in library grad programs. i'm feeling envious of the grad student at HisCon who's doing critical library studies & female masculinity & white trash & drag queens...she seems sort of like my intellectual doppelganger. i'm trying to track down other ways to put my combination of science studies & library-knowledge into some sort of application...i get so happy thinking of all the critical work there is to be done surrounding taxonomies & classificatory projects & such.

ahhh, this is getting too long for a comment!

kisses,
a.